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Name: Kelly
Birthday: 6/18/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Piano, marching band, making my friends laugh, swimming(not on a swim team), going to the mall
Expertise: piano, bass clarinet, clarinet, making my friends laugh, and making pretty signs for my friends
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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Member Since:
8/19/2005
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| I freaking hate this remodeling crap! My dad turns into the biggest f-ing jerk! Not listening to my mom, thinking only of himself. I don't understand how she puts up with him sometimes. He wants to redo the steps and den, and make them hardwood. There is nothing wrong with either! And we don't have a money tree growing in our backyard! My mom does not agree with it at all. I don't understand it. S*** like this makes me want to move out. I honestly don't know how much longer I can take living in here. I can't speak my mind to him sometimes cause he is so dominant and hard-headed. Or if I tell my honest opinion, it might be considered as "disrespectful" even though it's the truth. He can dish things out but can't take it. Ugh. Remodeling is making my parents argue, and I don't like it, it makes me feel uncomfortable and insecure. I really don't like my life right now. I don't even want to get started on prom. I'm not ready to graduate. My grades aren't where I want them to be. I feel like I've been kinda screwed over in the past years by HOPE. I had freaking 79's and 89's. Makes me so mad at myself, cause I could have put in a little more effort. I'm one A away from getting it, that is if I bring one up to a B and keep the others the same. Only 6 weeks left after spring break. I have to get that A! I can't let myself not get it, it will haunt me for the rest of my life, seriously. On top of everything else, I feel like a kid, and I want a boyfriend! Or someone descent to tell me they like me. Thank God for spring break next week, I need it. Oh yeah, the only good thing is that I've lost 15 pounds so far, but still struggling.
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| GRRRRRR! My life SUCKS right now! Grades, getting the hope, and of course BOYS. I'm so worried about prom, seriously I don't think people understand how worried I am. Then there's this whole complicated thing that I don't want to talk about cause I don't want the people who read this to know. I'll just say, why is it that I like a guy(I mean really like him), but I can't talk about it because somebody else who is very important in my life likes them? I just can't get over it, I've honestly liked him since a little after school began and started to get to know him. Yeah. My heart is a little broken right now, but I'll live. I didn't want to say anything cause to me friendship is more important than a guy, and I thought I would be a good friend if I didn't say anything and just let her go ahead on. Cause I don't want ANYTHING to effect our friendship. And I don't want her to feel like I am going to steal him or anything(she's closer to him than he is to me and has a better chance anyways honestly). I'm pretty much just waiting for the fun part of my life to begin. High school has basically sucked. And the fact that I don't have the grades to get into the school I want to go to makes it worse. I'm going to be so embarrassed at the end of the year when seniors go up to the front of the room in band and say where they're going to college, when I say Perimeter or Georgia Gwinnett College. Everyone else will be like, UGA, Tech, all those good places. I don't understand how I got a 98 on the playing test first semester, and not trying to brag, but, how I'm somewhat "musically talented" and yet I'm only in cp classes. Like every first chair person in band is extremely smart and musically gifted. I'm not. I'm not that smart, but I can play my instrument pretty well (for the most part), and I love playing music. I'm just so frustrated with myself right now. Back to guys, I started my diet about a week ago and I'm so desperate to feel better about myself. I'm quite determined and motivated. I really hate that I've been big all throughout high school, cause that has seriously muffled my social life. And I'm freaking 17 and haven't gotten my first kiss. I basically feel like a loser. Where's my magic genie when I need one? My 3 wishes would be: to be skinny, to be smarter, and to have more money. With just the weight and smartness part, my life would be set.  Life is just unfair, but I have no one but myself to blame about those.
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| Hey! Haven't updated in a while. So, I'm finally trying to move on with my life. I got an application for Joann's.  My brothers should be proud of me, lol. They keep telling me, you need to get a job! I think that would be a good place for me to work. They had a now hiring sign up, so I really hope I get the job, plus that will take some of my boredness and loneliness away. And John is going off to UGA, so if I don't get a job...talk about being so lazy and wow, lol. Also, that will help me lose some weight cause I'll be moving around and stuff. It's also exciting now, because I'm driving almost everywhere I go. That even means to my piano lesson, which is 35, 40 minutes away, over where Costen lives. So, yay! Lol. More practice, the better. I really have to get my license this summer, which I'm thinkin I will be able to get. And as far as grades go, this year has been my best year ever! I have 4 A's and two B's(one a high B). My US History grade I kinda need to fix, cause there were two grades that I have a zero on. Not because I didn't do the work, but because I never got the message to turn them in. So I'm going to turn them in and get partial credit for them, even though that sucks, cause I did the work at the time I was supposed to. But whatever, it's better than a zero. I have an 80 in there, and I don't want to get a C, because of finals. Oh yeah, finals. Well this week was so stressful. I had something major like every day. Fortunately, I think I did well on everything Yes, even the Physics performance final. So I'm like, thank God! Lol. Tonight I'm going to the dance show. Anyways, piano recital tomorrow! I'm so ready! Lol. Well, that's pretty much it. <3 Kelly
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| Yeah, so I'm like kinda stressed. Which is weird cause I'm supposed to be relaxing on Spring Break. Okay, so John got accepted to UGA, so he's all like, I don't know if I should go or not. So that's making me think about college and my plans. I was hoping that I could go to Perimeter and then transfer to UGA, which would be so totally awesome, but my mom was saying that with my SAT scores and my grades, it didn't look so good. I haven't even taken the SAT yet, but I know it won't be too much higher than my PSAT. Which was really low and bad. I really want to go to Georgia, but my mom's right. That kinda depressed me when she told me that though. I might end up going to Georgia State, which is an alright school. I think they're education classes are pretty good. I want to be an Algebra teacher. Cause I like doing Algebra, yes, I like math. Even though I'm not in like Gifted Pre-Calculus, like some of my friends. Sometimes, I feel so stupid. I kinda wish now that I would have taken school a little bit more seriously. Like all of my friends are smarter than me. And plus the fact that I have such a big fear of growing up. I dread college. Most people want to get out of the house and go off to college, but not me. I love where I live. I've grown up in the same house my whole life. I guess I just don't feel "mature." I don't feel ready to get a job, I should have gotten my license forever ago. I'm really worried about that. Cause there is no way I'm going to be a senior and not have my license or a car or something. I'm supposed to get my mom's van  , but I guess it's better than nothing. I really don't want to grow up. I certainly don't look my age and I don't feel my age. I'm not ready for like anything. I'm sooo worried! Where I'll go to college, how I'm going to pay for stuff, getting my license, driving in the embarrassing van, getting made fun of because of driving a van, getting a job, people thinking I'm like a Sophomore or Freshman, not a senior, taking the SAT. Ah! Just FREEZE LIFE! Why can't my parents just be normal and pay for my college and a car. I don't want a job. I'm afraid my grades will slip and it will take over my life, and I will be doing marching band in the Fall. Why is growing up so freakin' hard for me???!!! HELP!  
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